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Humbug

So. I've not posted too much recently; mostly that's because of the impending C-word, which normally leaves me feeling distinctly annoyed and sad, oddly. I don't really know when I stopped enjoying Christmas, or at least the run-up to Christmas.

I did have a success a couple of years ago, when I started thinking about it early, rather than doing my usual procrastination, and put a fair bit of energy into it. That went quite well. This is probably because I'm actually not too bad at finding things for people if I have lots of time to think about it, time to order stuff on the net, and get to the shops before they're completely packed full of angry-looking consumers, and on the roads before they're a tangled metal jam of frustrated shoppers.

This year is not one of the years where I got around to doing anything Christmassy early. And now I'm panicked and depressed, and I seem to be even more of a mass of "but I'm an atheist, and even if I wasn't I don't quite get along with all this hysterical product-buying" (which is hypocritical bearing in mind the fact that all through the year I'm a regular impulse-buyer of crap) than usual. And I appear to be generating even more run-on sentences with parenthetical diversions than normal, too.

Erm.

Partly it's probably got something to do with not having kids. Or a Significant Other, for that matter. Partly it's because I never know what to buy for people, and even when I do I don't think I've got it right. My paranoia works overtime at this time of year.

This year the fact that I've been working without a break for quite a long time probably isn't helping. I'm also at the not-so-great stage where Christmas seems to have been going on for a month or so, but I've not done the redeeming "spending time with real mates" thing yet, although that will change this weekend, at least. All I've really had so far is the office Christmas party, which I exited from early because I really wasn't in the mood.

Sigh.

I don't think it's been this bad for a few years. I've not even wrapped a single present yet. I've sent just one card. And I just don't want to start, but I also want it all to be finished so I can forget all about it. Arse.

Oh, and my foot hurts, and I've not been to karate for three weeks now because it's not been getting better, and I had a frustrating and fruitless attempt to book some physiotherapy today, and everything just seems to be very hard work right now.

Right. Rant over, for now. Bah. Humbug. Etc. etc. Normal optimistic silliness will be resumed at some point. Possibly in 2007, though, so don't hold your breath.

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Here, steal my bah humbug icon if you want.

Mmm, or I can do a gothic christmas hat in black for you, or add one to one of your icons if you want.

That would be very cool, if you have the time :)

I have the significant other, the kids and know what I'm getting for everyone... I still haven't wrapped a single present, sent a single card and I'm still not in the mood for this Christmas thing at all. I'm not Humbug, I usually enjoy this time of year.. this year it's different though and I can't explain why....

Big hugs to you, we're around in Bristol on Boxing day onwards for a few days if you fancy getting together **hug**

Mmmm. *hug* Just what I needed :)

Thinking about it, the novel writing thing probably didn't help. I needed a fair bit of time not doing anything at all to recover from it, which made me a lot later even than usual to start dragging myself into the spirit of things...

> Partly it's because I never know what to buy for people, > and even when I do I don't think I've got it right. My
> paranoia works overtime at this time of year.

Me too. Last year I wasn't working in the run up to December so managed to spend more time choosing stuff, so it was a bit better. But I always worry about getting the wrong thing. Or if it is the right thing they must have it already. And some people say that they really loved previous presents which only makes the pressure worse. And I also feel guilty that buying presents no-one wants is wasteful and not good for the planet.

The way I'm trying to do things this year is to ask what people want. And if they want 'a surprise' I'm playing safe and getting something non-permanent (edible, or drinkable, or toilettries)

The fact that I might be moving house next week isn't helping either. What happens if I buy stuff and then it gets packed up in boxes ready for the move and is never seen again? Something else to worry about!

As you say, it will get easier once you get to the "spending time with real mates" bits.

Me too. Last year I wasn't working in the run up to December so managed to spend more time choosing stuff, so it was a bit better. But I always worry about getting the wrong thing. Or if it is the right thing they must have it already. And some people say that they really loved previous presents which only makes the pressure worse. And I also feel guilty that buying presents no-one wants is wasteful and not good for the planet.


Heh. You are me and I claim my five pounds :)

As you say, it will get easier once you get to the "spending time with real mates" bits.


Well, that starts this evening, hopefully, so we'll see :)

and why do they put up the Christmas lights up in October...
I know where you are coming from.
However I might be around in the area Christmas time so I'll give you a shout.

Andre'

Firstly, HUG!

Anytime you need surrogate extra family, just come and see your Aunty Kavey! I'll give you big hugs anytime. Alternatively I can provide whichever surrogate services you feel are most appropriate - fights over the Christmas turkey, nagging about eating too much chocolate, arguments over what to watch on the telly... what I'm saying is not to forget that what you might be yearning for is probably quite an idealised view of what Christmas is like even for those with kids/ partners and it isn't all smiles and roses for most folks!

Now, about those presents... I know it's a cliche but it's a cliche for a good reason - because it's true! IT'S THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS! Whilst I'd be lying if I pretended that I felt no pleasure on receiving a particularly appropriate gift I honestly do feel wonderful just knowing that someone thinks enough of me that they want to give me a gift at all. The love that the gift represents really IS the thing I remember long after I've forgotten who gave me what!

That said, I absolutely do get Ruth's point about the guilt at buying something unwanted given the worries about wastage, environment and so on.

Last year I asked people who would normally get me a gift to please donate to one of my favourite charities instead. Or if they felt they must buy me something that I would receive (or at least receive a certificate for) then I suggested an acre of land from the World Land Trust (which you yourself kindly bought me for my birthday) or some other virtual gift that would provide some essential to wildlife conservation workers, people living in poverty, environmental charities...

People just didn't seem to like that idea AT ALL!

I do looooove choosing presents for people and I try really hard to make a personal selection for each person. That said, I do have some friends that I find it very, very difficult to do that for. I simply resort to buying something from their Amazon wishlist (or swearing under my breath if they don't one). Whilst I feel quite annoyed with myself for resorting to the wishlist I don't know why I do because I LOVE getting things from my own one. I guess because I impose this pressure on myself to personally choose something for each person and get cross with myself if I fail.

Hmmm....

"Hugs" from us too.

I tend to impulse shop throughout the year so that looking in the box generally means a pleasant surprise about how few pressies are still needed. Having said that, silly workloads have meant it still crept up on us. A concerted effort yesterday sees the Xmas tree in place and decorated and cards written and sent.

This year's going to be bit strange as we're at my folks (who don't celebrate Christmas for religious reasons, but give present and do the whole Christmas thing because it's easier on the rest of family) so J will be spending his first Christmas away from his family, oo-er. Actually I think I'm more stressed about this than he is.

If you fancy whiling some time away in the wilds of Harpenden, let us know. It would be good to catch up in person rather than mostly only at Group Holidays:-)

Hugs *squish*

I forgot a key point of my ramblings is that for me, present buying is more about the thought rather than the gift. I'm always delighted when somebody has taken the time to buy me a gift and part of the buying experience for me is thinking of the person opening their present and how I think they will react:-)

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